So many emotions and it is hard to deal with it all. I wish that I had a cleft palate support group to lean on, but here in Carson City you do not always have what you wish you had. You see, my conflict has arisen from the fact that Montana is getting ready for his first round of plastic surgery. Oh, do not get me wrong, he needs these surgeries and in the end it will all be wonderful for him. He will "look normal" and people will not cast that strange first look. He will be able to suck on a bottle and hopefully get rid of this tube feeding sooner rather than later. Yes, all of the surgeries he will face are for the good.
Now, my conflict. I love his little face. I love seeing his wide open grin, his little tongue working over time in that mouth of his. I love how his little face looks like Popeye with that flat nose of his that has no defined nostril on the one side. He is the baby we were given and we are in love with him.
Now, this next Tuesday, Nov. 9th, all of that is going to change. His wide open smile will be closed. His gum line will be brought back together. His nostril will be formed. His entire face will change. We will still love him, but I feel that at times I just might find myself thinking of that little face now gone and maybe even missing it now and then..
I am so thankful that Montana can have this surgery now and not wait. He will not even remember all that he must go through. I am thankful that Merrill and I are here to help him, to hold him through this journey. This is such an honor to be chosen to be with him.
Now, all we need from each of you is your prayers, your good thoughts, and to share our joy as we travel this path.
Thanks for once again checking on us.
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Now, my conflict. I love his little face. I love seeing his wide open grin, his little tongue working over time in that mouth of his. I love how his little face looks like Popeye with that flat nose of his that has no defined nostril on the one side. He is the baby we were given and we are in love with him.
Now, this next Tuesday, Nov. 9th, all of that is going to change. His wide open smile will be closed. His gum line will be brought back together. His nostril will be formed. His entire face will change. We will still love him, but I feel that at times I just might find myself thinking of that little face now gone and maybe even missing it now and then..
I am so thankful that Montana can have this surgery now and not wait. He will not even remember all that he must go through. I am thankful that Merrill and I are here to help him, to hold him through this journey. This is such an honor to be chosen to be with him.
Now, all we need from each of you is your prayers, your good thoughts, and to share our joy as we travel this path.
Thanks for once again checking on us.
.
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